scribling flamable sentences...

You. All that goes through my mind is you. Was for the good reasons but now is not. You have put me through so much shit, we were an inch away from getting together and you had me believing we would and then you hop along with someone else. All I would see is yours and hers lips together and arms around eachother...shoved in my face. I faked a smile and pretended to be oblivious to it. Didn't you realise nor think about how I fuckin' felt? Didn't did you, your ego just got in the way of your vision and compassion. And aww you were upset when you broke up, boohoo. Then we were talking and talking as we always did and you even admiting you liked me before and things had changed. yeh cheers. We were being sooo honest and flirting, i really liked you and always did. I had my mates do some research and you said that i'm too fridgey...soz! You had my hopes at they're highs and then litrely stamped on them,....Rejected. Rejected. Rejected. Thennnnn you got with someone else, I found that out when you said you had 'gf problems' yeh cheers. So I was getting over you. She cheated. You broke up. As usual we were always talking and all, you would always say you were 'thinking' and then admited you wanted a gf and wanted to ask someone specific out, a mate. I was happy for you, and secretly hoped it was me. Was hurt, really hurt. Was rejected, led on ect. Then I found out it was me you were crazy for. You'd try to impress me, comliment me, ect. Felt kinda special. You asked me out so perfectly, I said.....yes. Although I was in doubt and wondering whether I actually liked you as I was getting over you. You admited to all you had done to me and was extremley sorry. I began to not ever to want to be away from you. Was starting to LOVE you. I am. But!!! But, all that happened this weekend, I broke something of yours, appoligized, you ignored me, and so i ignored you, got concusion, mates really cared....YOU DIDN'T GIVE A SHIT, if I died you wouldn't of even noticed cause of your ego and male pride. I was also drunk and so said things about you. You heard. I tried to break the ice as to our ignoring eachother. You still won't talk to me. Don't you fucking realise i'm a human being with feelings. The floor of my sanity is crumbling, you pushing me through it and i hope it's death beneath.